I love the occasional "heavy topic"... and how it makes me reflect on life in general. This is a heavy one for me in some ways, but I sort of welcome the opportunity to think about it out loud now and then.
I have a wonderful career... I am a CNM (Certified Nurse-Midwife), and have been delivering babies since 1997... about 1200+ so far. I'm not sure any job could be much more rewarding, or much more demanding. I get invited to be the caretaker for the most important event of a couple's life, and that's an honor. The joy and reward is balanced by the stress, lack of sleep, and demanding schedule... and by the fact that I don't leave work at work, feel attached to the incredibly challenged population I care for, and struggle with the medical community and the world at large for professional respect that is often not shown to advanced practice nurses.
My dream career might leave some independent career women (like me) cringing. If I could rearrange my life right now, I'd like to be a homemaker... wife, mother, domestic goddess. I'd love to be able to pop out 2 or 3 babies, stay at home to mother them, cook, clean, garden, take care of a home and family, and have a wonderful husband bringing home the bacon financially, adoring me beyond measure, and taking me and the kids to Disney at least twice a year.
Life is full of ironies... homemakers want a rewarding career. Career women wonder what they are missing by not being at home with a family. And in my case... I deliver babies, but I am physically unable to have any of my own. Some days, my career as a midwife seems like a blessing because I get to share in the joys of others... and other days, I see only unwanted pregnancies, homes and families unfit for a baby, drug abuse, domestic violence, and every social disparity you can imagine... and then it just doesn't seem quite fair.
OK, Chip said not to get too heavy... so I probably broke that rule! All in all, I have a great career... and hope, someday, if my work schedule allows, to adopt a child. Being a midwife offers some significant challenges to the idea of single parenting... as does the enormous expense of adoption in general... but that is a gripe I'll save for another day.
In my cup this morning, Den's Fuka-Midori Sencha... pretty good.
Sarah