Why rabbit almost died O_O

[rabbit]

The past few weeks have been some of the most stressful/worst weeks that I can remember. I was kicked out of my own home because of someone elses pride, my family turned their backs on the love of my life, I broke my gaiwan and ran out of tea among many MANY other terrible things that I just don't feel like bringing up right now.

I literally became so overwhelmed with stress and anxiety that I had a breakdown (minutes before having to go in to work... of course!) and was considering checking myself into a hospital.

Saturday afternoon was the first day that I feel things are going back to normal, a few of the problems were resolved and my stressed level dropped dramatically ... To top it off I recieved my order of tea (every type imaginable!), my new gaiwan, my new teacup, tea tray, strainer, OTTI teas and my tiny yixing pot from Victoria all at the same time! My girlfriend cooked dinner and we decided to eat outside... it was getting dark so I lit some candles and it suddenly (and unexpectedly) became a very romantic dinner!

I've been drinking 2010 imperial TGY all yesterday and today (it's wonderful, with a floral scent and a buttery sweet flavor that lingers on the tongue).

I can finally breath without that pain in my chest and knots in my stomach.

Not sure why I'm posting this, I think I just needed to get it out of my system I will continue to live and to sip.

peace!
-Rabbit

[geeber1]

Sorry to hear about your recent troubles, Rabbit. It's interesting that everything started to look up when you finally got some TEA, though! I hope things continue to improve for you.

[JBaymore]

rabbit,

VERY glad some stuff is turning around for you. Life sometimes throws some serious curveballs at you. Ometimes it takes a while to get used to the "pitcher" and figure out how to hit them out of the park.

Polite and humble suggestion here, ........ if you were feeling that low and were considering checking into a hospital..... and given the title of the thread..... even if things seem massively better right now.... you should likely talk to your health care professionals anyway. Just to make sure that things keep going well.

Be well and enjoy the new tea and teaware.

best,

...........john

[rabbit]

Thank you all for your support. Just to clarify the hospital was for having an anxiety attack not thoughts of suicide or anything.

[Chip]

Glad to hear you are on the mend, Rabbit. Take care of yourself ... and have some OTTI which certainly cannot hurt!

[Victoria]

Glad you are feeling better Rabbit. Venting in a constructive way is always a good thing. Now you can let it go. Relax and enjoy your tea.
Better days are ahead!

[kymidwife]

A periodic melt-down, when handled well as yours was, can be very therapeutic and cathartic. Its like a computer crash... many can be avoided by proper precautions and regular self-care maintenance, but sometimes they are unavoidable, due to circumstances beyond your control. You hate the crash, but you love how well your system runs after you work out the bugs.

Glad you are feeling better, and with all that tea and wares, its no wonder things are looking up!

Sarah

[LauraW]

A periodic melt-down, when handled well as yours was, can be very therapeutic and cathartic. Its like a computer crash... many can be avoided by proper precautions and regular self-care maintenance, but sometimes they are unavoidable, due to circumstances beyond your control. You hate the crash, but you love how well your system runs after you work out the bugs.

Glad you are feeling better, and with all that tea and wares, its no wonder things are looking up!

Sarah

I like this analogy! Couldn't have said it better myself!

Also, I can sympathize to a certain extent - 2 years ago I told my parents something they didn't want to hear, and I nearly lost everything (including my mind). They hate my boyfriend, so every day that I was here, living my life, they were wishing I'd moved back in with them and let my father run my life. It took some time, but things are starting to look up - the current project is figuring out how to get them to help me out with the down payment on a house (in which my boyfriend will also be living, even though his name won't be on the mortgage, etc.). It's taken time, but either they're slowly learning to let me live my life and make my own mistakes and be happy, or they're living under the delusion that I'm living by myself...

Anyway, sorry for the long response, but I'm glad you're doing better - anxiety attacks are never fun, but mine have mostly gone away now (except in thinking about how to pay for a house...). Glad new tea/wares are helping!

[rabbit]

Well, after the last month I realize that what happened in this post was miniscule compaired to my life as of this current moment. I'll be writing a new post about how I truly almost died soon.

[Alex]

A periodic melt-down, when handled well as yours was, can be very therapeutic and cathartic. Its like a computer crash... many can be avoided by proper precautions and regular self-care maintenance, but sometimes they are unavoidable, due to circumstances beyond your control. You hate the crash, but you love how well your system runs after you work out the bugs.

Glad you are feeling better, and with all that tea and wares, its no wonder things are looking up!

Sarah

That's the right attitude right there. The world is never the same after a breakdown.....its so much more beautiful and simple.